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vthor I'm really sorry you are going through this. It's awful for you and it hurts I know what it's like 03:05:43

do you believe in the power of prayer? 03:09:25

I do and I have used it to great effect. You may find that the results aren't instantaneous though, it could take anything from a day to a month up to a year. My experience is that it depends what you are praying for. the smaller the request, the sooner it can be granted 03:14:33

In 2020,2021, my life was in a very, very very dark place. I was living in supported accommodation, where the careworkers were emotionally and mentally abusive and cruel, there was no warmth, no comfort and no compassion. I am autistic, and also partially deaf as well as being totally blind, and my worries and concerns and grievances were swept aside. It took over a year for my 03:14:35

prayers to be answered. I was living in a pressure cooker situation and because of the lockdowns, there was nowhere I could go. 03:21:46

Eventually, I was able to exit that horrible cesspool and move into a new place. it's not ideal, and I may need to move again soon, but things are a lot better than what they were in 2020 and 2021. Sadly last year, I lost my father to Parkinsons disease, but I'm glad he got to see the new place I moved into before he passed 03:24:11

anyhow, there is hope out there, just keep praying. thats what I do when things get to be too much. I do it when I'm on my own, I just pray silently. 06:15:02 "vthor I'm really sorry you are going through this. It's awful for you and it hurts I know what it's like" <- Het the-whocrazy76, seems I'm through the heaviest, at the moment cleaning up the mess it generated, and reorganizing, only wanted for some minutes put some GTD and pomodoro together to get again in the flow with all open tasks, and of course down the rabbit hole :D Most things raise and fall purely on mindset, and I can't 06:15:03 allow myself to not do everything in my power, so there is always only one way, still there is some juice in the batteries. 06:41:22 "do you believe in the power of prayer?" <- no, have seen to much in my life, and a lot of people praying instead of acting, and I have seen where that lead for most of them. I thing that is a energy net negative. But I believe that everybody can be a god, it's only to decide and take the things in the own hands. Don't want to say it is easy, contrary. I have the stupidity that I normally answer how I read from top to down, and then 06:41:23 at the end I see often that I missed the point or answered without need or write useless stuff. Interesting, I'm also autistic and I would have said that this is the main reason why I would never believe in anything and question all. Heck, I'm sorry for your situation. I was like 3 months death after a forced vaccine, and I thought in this three months, if this doesn't go away then I don't want. When my daughter lost here sight it 06:41:25 broke my heart, only few years before we figured out that she is non-verbal autistic and then that. And with all that and more issues she is still laughting every day. I have a lot of respect for people like you or my daughter, which still are able to see positive things. When I'm again aware of then I'm pretty ashamed not functioning because being burned out, I'm still pretty privileged and often not aware of it. Yeah, hope dies 06:41:26 last - except hope dies, then I think it's anyway over. But as long you can still act and have some hope, so much things are possible. Don't know if you ever heard of the 'bind surfer' on youtube.? Or there is a guy, completely paralized, he needed to "live" on $900 per month. But if he would earn money it would get diducted from that amount. He made at the end I think one or two years millions with copy writing. And I had on the 06:41:28 weekend an idea how I get my daughter again soon to have a life :) This gives me energy. I will try to sleep 2hours and continue to work, after I get everything structured I will put the accesibilty labels and keyboard control for monero-gui on high priority, I was looking a bit inside and I think it should take me less then 20 hours. Hope I read you soon! Have the best time you can have! 07:04:13

Have you ever heard the phrase, you meet one person with autism, you've met one person with autism. Usually, with most phrases like that, they usually read something like: you've seen one (insert name here), you've seen them all. IE, you've seen one sociopath, you've seen them all. 07:07:51

I suppose my autism would be categorized as high functioning, or mild, I still have difficulty with changes in routine, or if I'm told one thing is going to happen, and then a totally different thing occurs, it can really throw a spanner in the works. 07:11:16

and to avoid burnout, the best thing you can do is get plenty of sleep, and make sure you're getting enough nutrients and vitamins. 07:15:12

re: prayer, maybe the praying you've seen, maybe they haven't been praying properly, or they only prayed once, or their beliefs aren't strong enough. 07:18:54

I really dislike those church organisations that try and weaponize religion and come over all fire and brimstone, IE, "don't tell any lies or you'll go to hell. IE< all punishment and no reward 07:19:51

and I don't believe in forcing religion in people's faces or constant proselytizing, like the lord this, the lord that. 09:05:13 Hi Folks! 09:05:15 As a mercant, I face a disadvantage with the MoneroGUI: 09:05:17 1) I can export the transaction history, where i gave individual purposes/ descriptions for a transaction, but i cant import them. This would be very useful, while using parallel a view only wallet to fetch and synch descriptions for transactions. 09:05:19 Hi Folks! 09:05:21 As a mercant, I face a disadvantage with the MoneroGUI: 09:05:23 I can export the transaction history, where i gave individual purposes/ descriptions for a transaction, but i cant import them. This would be very useful, while using parallel a view only wallet to fetch and synch descriptions for transactions. 09:06:53 sorry for crashing a maybe very important discussion :D 15:12:41 "the-whocrazy76: Have you ever heard the phrase,..." <- :D yeah, but I have a very hard time to think that somebody things in another way, I mean I'm logicaly aware if I think about, but in my daily life I think always, that's a no brainer "everybody..." - only to figure out that it's me and maybe a hand full splattered around the world. Yeah, what means even high functioning, I mean when I function I function very well, but in time I not, I simply don't. 15:12:42 The worse is really to have all the work done in the head but not being able to make the mechanical laber to type it. And while my daughter and my wife have difficulties on routine changes like you, routine makes me miserable, I hate any form of repetition, when I wake up in the morning only to remember that I need to walk my daughter dog, makes me to not want to wake up :D It is not his fault, I like him, but this madatory every day makes me nuts. :D When I'm 15:12:44 in so stupid situations like now I try to make exactly the oposite, to sleep as few as possible to have more our to digg myself out, but when I finally fall asleep with three ritalin, is the point I simply (like last night) I switch of the alarm). Yeah, have also seen that nutrition has a huge impact, and how more I analyze the more complicated it becomes. Don't know, think still any kind of belief is a trap where you give up control, and I think control is 15:12:45 upmost important. But I may wrong at the end, I don't know nothing for sure. :D (by the way, do you get text-smileys, or is it easier to write like *laugh* for you?). I don't need any institution to punish me, I can do that myself.